Looking back now, how I have it figured is, if I had arrived at the ashram at such a time that I would have seen or met the young boy during the exact same period that his mental barriers had been "reduced to nothingness," as an adult arriving from the present time backward and aware of never having experienced such a state, that is, not recalling it from my youth to a grown man, yet fully aware of the importance of Enlightenment, I would have interceded in some fashion to ensure growing to manhood it wasn't lost.
The easiest way for that to have transpired would to have somehow eliminated the one, primary specific incident that was most directly responsible for the loss --- without disturbing the overall nature of the time-flow. Now, if I could have figured out what that specific incident was on the spot in the ashram at the time or not is another thing. Looking back, that one specific incident would be to ensure the boy knew, no matter what, under NO or any circumstances, was he to get out of the car and open the garage door before his aunt stopped the car and she herself got out.
However, after having become an adult, because of the mitigating circumstances that transpired after I returned from the ashram as a young boy, that is, having stumbled onto the bloody physical aftereffects of my uncle committing suicide by placing a shotgun in his mouth, my mind shut down or covered over the event to such a point I didn't know or remember anything in my everyday day-to-day surface thoughts from that period of time. If such was the case, how would I have been able to intercede in such a manner that I could have warned the boy? Somehow, when I went back to the ashram as an adult, even if I didn't know I needed it, I would still should have, simply growing up as part of the family, garnered some sort of a surface knowledge of my uncle's suicide into my repertoire in order to put it to use.
The thing is, as an adult having grown up with that portion of my life absent from my memory I didn't remember that as a young boy I visited the ashram, nor while there I was visited by a man who, in the process of that visit we exchanged photos between the Code-O-Graphs. I did know though that somewhere along the way the photos had been switched. Both my younger brother and Adam Osborne as well as me, noticed in later years the difference. I also knew that the Code-O-Graph had gone missing by the time I returned from India during a period of time when I was a young boy because my uncle found it stored away in a box at his mothers and by then I was no longer a little boy, but a teenager just about ready to graduate from high school.
When I left for India as a little boy the Code-O-Graph had a picture of Captain Midnight in the square. When it was found in a box at my grandmother's it had a picture of a young boy mounted in it. That meant by pure deduction sometime between the time I arrived in India and returned to the states the photo had been changed. I knew both those incidents. What I didn't know was what happened during the time between those two incidents that caused me to not know what happened. I needed to know the specific incident so I could warn the boy. The thing is, I didn't know I needed to know because I didn't know I was going to end up at the ashram and meet the boy until I actually ended up at the ashram. I didn't remember up through to being an adult that as a young boy I met a man at the ashram who I switched photos with. If I would have I would have remembered I was going to the ashram and been prepared to warn the boy. It was only after I returned to the west and learned all of the events that I had all of the information I needed. By then it was too late.
So, the Zen master missed his mark. Ending up at the ashram before the boy entered a "state of having been reduced to nothingness," I didn't know the boy was ever Awakened, so when I returned to my regular present time forward I still didn't know. If by the Zen master's efforts I would have ended up at the ashram during the boy's Enlightened period before Mara the Tempter interceded, as I have stated above, I still wouldn't have had the knowledge of the specific incident that impacted him adversely, so I couldn't have warned him anyway. If I did have that information and warned him and he followed through with the warning and because of having done so remained Enlightened right up into adulthood, there would have been no reason for the Zen master to have sent me back to intercede.
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